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[23 Feb 2005|12:34pm]

TONIGHT!!!!!

FIREFIGHT IN PASADENA (my band)

Audible Campaign,The Farewell News, Unlikely Heroes, and no refunds.

thee imperial 7:30

be there or be square.

[10 Feb 2005|11:55am]

FEB. 23 2005

FIREFIGHT IN PASADENA (my band)

Audible Campaign,The Farewell News, Unlikely Heroes.

thee imperial 7:30

be there or be square.


 

[04 Dec 2004|09:29pm]
so, yeah, i figured that i should tell every one whats going on in my life instead of just leaving some cheap ass entry such as the last one i wrote...

ok well, since my last the last time i posted, well actually the entry before the last entry, ive fallen FAR FAR FAR FAR FAR FAR FAR FAR FAR FAR FAR FAR FAR FAR FAR FAR FAR FAR FAR FAR FAR FARFARFARFARFARFARFARFARFARFARFARFARFARFARFARFARFARFARFARFARFARFARFARFARFAAFFAYTAFTFIsgDP;a fvSEIUHF [ASDKJLDHFV ASKDJHV away from jesus, and i love it, i still love him and he still loves me so i know im going to heaven, but whatver. ok so i came out, im a compleat faggot. yes you read right im a HOMOSEXUAL! so, if youve got a problem with that you can take me off your friends list now. i could care less. and i smoke, way too much, not weed but ciggarettes, which sux pretty bad because they are fucking gross but ive formed an addiction (and just at the most wonderfull time too ehh? begining of winter, when its like 8000000000 degrees below zero and i have to go out fucking side!) which fucking sux. ive been hanging out with andy alot lately and im getting a crush on him. ive been talking to chloe and kylee which was the first thing on my list of "never gonna happen's" so, thats cool..now i know anythings possible. but for fucks sake people, homos dont have leprocy so, damn i wont rub off on you. but, i cant think of anymore to talk about. so later
-mc jaffe

i have a heart and livejournal user name change...plus a really good exerpt. [30 Sep 2004|07:32pm]
[ mood | full ]

here is a passage you should all read from the blue renaissance creative group website.Collapse )

i cant sleep due to the fact that im totally gonna be partyin' tomorrow night [24 Sep 2004|11:33pm]
man oh man! im so excited about tomorrow night...HOMECOMING. its gonna be so fun, only because im going with alicia (a 17 year old senior who also happens to be elizabeth hall's cousin) dude, im so nervous...im gonna sweat so much....and im gonna pray so hard....that i dont mess up...but if i do infact mess up...which im sure i will...ill just pull a napolian dinomite dance move and make her laugh...therefore making her think that my mess up was on accedent. HAH! ive got it all planed out.
but seriously...im gonna be so hot, she is wearing this baby pink dress and i am wearing a baby pink shirt, with this awsome black blazer that was indeed made for girls, along with the coolest tie in the universe and blue jeans, wich are also made for girls. man, im so hot. and i dont care what any one else says! i am! i was made in God's image and that makes me beautiful. oh whatever...today-------------

woke up.
went to school.
came home.
watched makeover shows and "a wedding story" with my mom.
got picked up by liz. (gigantor)
went to the middleburg football game to see joey instead of the fleming island foot ball game which
is my schools homecomming. ehhh...whatever.
came home...now im writing this.
nice.
-matt

i lied...lame, but true [13 Sep 2004|02:12pm]
ok guys, ive been lying to all of you, even ruri and every one, ive been taking alot of crap from every one when i dont have to...it was a lame lie and i dont know why i told it, but here is the truth........

i had been thinking alot about my self and how im not like any of my friends, i dont go to shows or dress hxc, i dont have cool hair and im just a loser, i cant dance i cant do anything, so i figure why try to be those things when i cant? i was edge for my self first and foremost but in the back of my head it was so i could have somthing to be a jerk about, when i see someone smoking or if someone breaks edge, i wanted to be like all of you pretty much, but im a loser so it doesnt really matter. but any ways, as i thought more and more about what my life has been becoming, all this "scene kid" mask crap, i decided, im gonna still live edge but not claim, but when it camearound to telling people my desision i pussed out. i couldent explain to every one, i just dident have the words to say. and so long story short, that whole thing about getting drunk over kylee and crying my self to sleep was all this huge stupid lie i fabricated to get out of edge, stupid i know, but whatever, i never broke and i swear that on my life. (which is more important thant my used to claim "edge") so sorry add that to my list of wrongs, i suck and i know it, i just dident feel i had to claim any more and it was my immaturity that invoked the lie, i truely am sorry.

matt jaffe.

hmph... [07 Sep 2004|12:35am]
have any of you ever wanted to kill your selfs? cause i certainly do right now.

[28 Aug 2004|01:41pm]

i love this girlCollapse )

[04 Jul 2004|01:02am]
well, brittanys trying to be my friend, should i trust her? mabey she just wants to screw me over, i want to trust her really bad, but im not quite sure, if any one knows anything about her trying to screw me over post it anonymously, cause if she will go that low, she will kick your ass for saying it. and also...wait what am i saying? if she hates me that bad, then every one else might too. yep. who can i trust? noone. i wont trust any of you, cause you cant trust me. im just a stupid freaking lyer. i suck, and i hate my self. noone will give me the chance to change, and when i am changed, which i think i am now, noone will take the time to see. i hate it, i hate it all.
good bye.
xXx matt jaffe

the band is a go. [01 Jul 2004|12:25am]
hey,
i know i havent updated in a while, wether from embarassment and shame or just lazyness. but whatever im back now, with my life in line.

so, turns out i was driving around and saw an ex-girlfriend of mine through the window of her work. her hair was died since the last time i saw her and she was talking to one of her co-workers and laughing, shes so beautifull to me and i have no idea why. too bad im such a loser. oh well, what comes up must come down (and i mean that in the purist way possible!)

yeah, joey bishop has his group on tuesday nights now. i love him and krista they are so nice to me, no one is as nice to me as they are, hah they must not know me.
:( but whatever. im a loser and thats that. praise jesus. good night.
xXx matt
(ps- im still true)

[24 Apr 2004|12:31am]
ok i hung out with brittany, jacob, nathan, codizzle, and sarah at the park, it was fun and im verry tired...
i got a new back ground for my journal and its pretty cool. i love it.
brittany-i <3 you.

xXx matt

[22 Apr 2004|04:24pm]
have you ever been excedingly happy about your significant other? i most deffinately am at this point in time. cause' shes freaking awsome.

[18 Apr 2004|01:50am]
i got two new icons... this one and one that is just a pink gun, ill put that one on later... do you like? oh and tomorrow ill be spending the day with my brittany, sarah and nathan...should be really rad. hope nathan doesnt smoke alot...its really gross.

xXx matt

to all of my "friends" please read this so tomorrow you dont show up in shock... [16 Apr 2004|05:05pm]
[ mood | accomplished ]

i need to get my prioritys right and pick my friends...so if your drama...i dont want to be your friend...if your fake i dont want to be your friend... if you make fun of my edge or any one elses edge or just straight edge in general (ex: ZZZ, jZe) i dont want to be your friend. i dont want more drama so dont get mad at me...im losing my best friend and i dont want a whole bunch of clutter. so dont hang out with me dont bitch at me its whats best for all of us...im deleating alot of my friends list, and please dont complain. i love you all like i love the farm animals, enough to fight for your life but not enough to be your best friend. so accuantances will have to do. ive been thinking about this for a long time (have you noticed me drawing back or getting closer to you?) so i know this is whats right. i have my girlfriend and i have my good friends that contain hardly any drama, and thats all i need. ill still talk to you i just dont want to hang out with you and thats that.

love,
### matt

ps- im straight-up-edge

[16 Apr 2004|03:35pm]
i asked her out she said yes... i am so happy...arent you guys?


also i hung out with andy and sara and ruri and sam after school. it twas fun and nobody asked me questions on my last post...gay.

### matt

[14 Apr 2004|05:13pm]
Stolen from Sara(Yournotsincere):

I want everyone who reads this to ask me 3 questions, no more no less.

Ask me anything you want.

Then I want you to go to your journal, copy and paste this allowing your friends (including myself) to ask you anything.

[14 Apr 2004|05:08pm]
today was fun...
nick wasnt there
brad wasnt there
i love SOS
i love andy
i love jacob
i love lauren
i love lauren's mother
i love twig n' berry (with only 1/4 of a bannana) from planet smoothie
i love austin a whole lot...come to think of it i need to add him back.

[13 Apr 2004|10:01am]
i like a girl and i think she likes me back mofos
xXx matt

this is so tuff guy/ hardcore, i love it... [09 Apr 2004|10:54pm]

[09 Apr 2004|01:52pm]
i took 10 of my friends... see if you can guess who you are...

1) you are freaking rad and my best friend ever, even though you dont really fit in with all my other good friends and they dont really care about you i love you to death dude. remember, your my best man.

2) ok, we got into a heated fight but i really dont want you to die and im really proud to call you one of my top 10 frinds. plus you saw my **** the closest.

3) you have been my best chick friend forever since i moved hear and i will love you always and forever, even though we fight about really stupid stuff, kinda like married cupples do...we should get married, just joking, sorry.

4) you have really cool hair and you have regained respect for me cause im true now. i love you girl.

5) you call me a fag and i call you fat, you say im fat and i call you fatter, we always get in fist fights and your still one of my best friends, thats how close you are to my heart...fatty.

5) girl your so rad and much older but you still have a wierd way of bringing out my romantic side...>5 minutes< i love you.

6) i looked up to for so long and then you cruched my heart but im not as concerned with feelings any more and so now your like equal to nick, your my best friend as well.

7) your quiet at school and crazy out of it but compleatly rad all the time, you have a great voice and your sister is a wierdo.

8) dude your such a "scenester"

9) your a freak and you have really low self esteem, you always ask me if i think your pretty, and i always say no, but i really always want to say yes, cause you are, you have your times of being really rad and at other times i cant stand you, but your still a great friend.

10) i think im gonna marry you for real and we could name our son grason and have horses...but not for a long time. see you at church sunday.

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